My baby is turning 4

Well well well.. what a week! I am so exhausted it has just been crazy with dr. appts, new meds,the kids home from school. This weekend I have been preparing for Chloe's 4th birthday and her first real birthday party. She is so excited and has no idea that her grandma is flying in, her new Nintendo DS, her dollhouse, and the 4 shots she is getting on the 23rd LOL.

Sean and I really thought it was important to make her feel special this year, after all her life is not easy(even though she is spoiled) I think sometimes people forget about the siblings when you have a special needs child. I know she is very smart and aware but she still needs her time away from chase and by herself. It has been a real struggle with me to divide my time between them. I just pray that when she gets older she knows that I wasn't ignoring her I just needed to give Chase all the help he needed at the moment. She is a very helpful girl with a huge heart who knows way to much about medicines, machines and CP. Maybe she will be a doctor one day!

I have to admit that I feel like I missed out on a lot of her this year. I cannot beat myself up over it! It was something I had to do and hopefully when she is a mom she will understand it all!

WOW 4!!! I feel like I just held her for the first time in the NICU thinking she is so tiny and i hope she grows into that nose!lol. She did it is so cute now. OK hope everyone has a great week.